I have loads to update. But lemme just give you a glimpse of my upcoming post!

I'm thinking of going home for puasa and hari raya this year.. BUT it seems like its not gonna happen :'( pobre

People, do you ever feel like sometimes you just wanna cry out loud?? You try to deny and pretend that everything is okay and try to act normal but deep within, you were actually break into thousand pieces~ That is exactly what I feel right now. If you read this, its not because of what you have said.. Well, yeah a bit. To be honest. But I forgive you already but this is the long term feeling. You know me~ Always have this minion negative thinking of mine. It totally broke my heart. It's okay. Hold on. It's not actually okay at first but yeah I'm okay with it now. And I'm sorry too.. Oh god!! Wth that I'm blabbering here?? Trust me, my love to you never fade. I love you like I always do.

Hahaha ;D I guess you might think who said that? It would never be me!! Cause you know, I am kind, good person and will never say to people that they don't have taste. No? Yeah!! It was....

Hello beautiful people!!

I believe all of us are in great shape, great mood, awesome life. Heh! So, it's already been seven days now, and I am still coping with my life which I must say, super dull!! Thanks to my mom and dad who will never forget to bbm me everynight asking how am I doing, and also thanks to mr. keens cause without him I will be bored to death!! I know that all of us must at least have resolution doesn't matter new year, week, day or whatever~ Well, I do to but before that I need to mention on what's been in my mind lately.

1. I use twitter often now as I know its kinda private and I can say whatever I wanna say or rant or mock or curse! Heh! I don't do much cursing yeahh ;)

2. I realise now, I have not been invited to any of my closest friends' birthday here in Manchester. I wonder what did I do wrong and honestly, would like to confront but heck no cause it will drag this matter long! Whatever people~

3. I seldom spend time with my friends here nowadays. Probably because I'm working now or they got something interesting to do ;) And, to tell you the truth, I'm feeling kinda awkward talking to them sometimes.

4. Since like everybody getting far or me making myself apart, I love to spend my time with Ameerul. I know it sound clingy yes I agree.. But me and him doesn't seems to have problem with that. In fact, we love it!! Yes, I agree that sometimes I get annoyed seeing him every day, but whenever I wanted to go home and seeing him another day, my heart stumbled and doesn't feel right at all!! Oh, what have you done to me Ameerul!!

5. He is so kind to me and help me when I am down. Listen to me when I cry, just stay cool when I'm having my pms, help me so much in his own way. He's being too good for me which I am thankful to ALLAH for sending me him, Ameerul. I love you baby.

6. I'm looking for visa extension and I am looking for post-study work visa for Ameer too. He wanted to stay after he graduated and stay with me here. I hope that it will come true and your mama will allow you to work here.

7. Lately, a few of my friends are getting engaged and soon as in this summer soon, they gonna get married. Me and Ameer also have receive a few invitation which I am not sure I will attend or will I be here. Oh, all this things makes me wanna get married too!! InsyaALLAH, soon or after we graduated, we gonna get married ;) Ameen!!!

whoahh!!! Am I only a dreamer?? There are a lot of things playing in my mind yeah~ Can't believe it!! InsyaALLAH, whatever been bugging me, I try to solve it and whatever that I dream of, InsyaALLAH, I will make it happen. Ameen~
So, practically, I don't have any new year resolution~ All I wanna be this year, a good khalifah in HIS world, an awesome daughter to my parents, a fantastic sister to my siblings, a great girlfriend that nobody could ask for to my Ameerul and last but not least, I want to gain wealth this year ;) InsyaALLAH~

Please keep me in your doa ;) thank you!!
*hugs*