stay what you are darlings~

2011-02-17T08:35:00.002Z

I know I have been procrastinating to write updates about my holiday to Barcelona. -_-" I'm being a lazy bum I know.. *like anyone wanted to read my blog heh*

Ok, lets start from the beginning.

Me and Ameerul at first, wanted to go to Faro, Portugal. Why Faro?? Well, none of our friends never been there and it would be great if we became the pioneer and they will take reference from us =_="teehee... wtf weh!!! But when I'm asking around ( I just ask Cuna ) she told me that Faro has nothing to offer and plus the flight to go there aren't frequent. So, we gotta plan a new holiday pronto! Hence, Barcelona ;)

On the first day we take a look at the ticket it was £10 and so we thought we should just buy some other time because we haven't decide yet. Two days after, OMG!!!! Ryanair decided to make it £20ticket fare. Ameerul simply click purchase and done!! £68 return for two.

Hey, too much talking ey??

Me while waiting for Terravision Bus to John Lenon Airport

Reach there early, check-in and chill

Sunny but oh so freezing Liverpool at 4pm

The room at Hostal Nitzs BCN, Carrer de Calella

Entrance of Sagrada Familia

An enchanted view from Park Guell

In front of Barcelona FC megastore

My man at Port Vell

La Rambla market

Me at Port Olympic

We gotta head off to Girona Airport - back to reality :'(

All in all, everything was run smoothly, no one gets hurt, nobody lost their wallet or anything ;) Oh did I tell you Barcelona its severe crime rate were pickpockets?? Yeah, they are like nothing else to do but pickpockets like its a habit! And my friend who recently went there lost his wallet which were 250Euro inside it! Damn man!!! But he was cool.. If it happens to me, I will wailing till I found mine ;) heh!

So, Barca. We cancelled it on our honeymoon list ;)

Till we meet again people ;)

Loads

2011-02-04T12:43:00.003Z

I have loads to update. But lemme just give you a glimpse of my upcoming post!

You should have an idea what's gonna be next! I'll update soon

love you xx

Tanah tumpahnya darahku

2011-01-25T21:10:00.002Z

I'm thinking of going home for puasa and hari raya this year.. BUT it seems like its not gonna happen :'( pobre

Why??!!

1. May : I have exam

2. June: I have eurotrip plan with ameerul

3. July: Ameerul's convocation

3. August: Ameerul wanna stay here to celebrate raya. We have promise this a year ago

4. September: Uni starts

So, tell me. How??!!! Should I persuade or convince ameerul to go back home and celebrate ray with me, so that I can go home in August?? or should I just wait till winter?? Ameerul said, if we go back in August, he might not coming back unless he have a job or psw over here :( How??!!! Kita kahwin je lah!! :))

Meant to be broken??

2011-01-14T00:05:00.002Z

People, do you ever feel like sometimes you just wanna cry out loud?? You try to deny and pretend that everything is okay and try to act normal but deep within, you were actually break into thousand pieces~ That is exactly what I feel right now. If you read this, its not because of what you have said.. Well, yeah a bit. To be honest. But I forgive you already but this is the long term feeling. You know me~ Always have this minion negative thinking of mine. It totally broke my heart. It's okay. Hold on. It's not actually okay at first but yeah I'm okay with it now. And I'm sorry too.. Oh god!! Wth that I'm blabbering here?? Trust me, my love to you never fade. I love you like I always do.

"B, you don't have taste!"

2011-01-09T21:15:00.003Z

Hahaha ;D I guess you might think who said that? It would never be me!! Cause you know, I am kind, good person and will never say to people that they don't have taste. No? Yeah!! It was....

Him!!!

Looks so innocent but it was all lie!! :P He said that right to my face last night!! LOL and he added, "as for me, I got great taste!" *in his proud tone* Heh! Do you get what he really meant?? No?? Yeah?? No?? Well, he meant well. He clarify that I have bad taste by choosing him and he wonder why am I being with him while he got great taste as in he's with me *aww I'm flattered* slap! Why do you have to wonder that I'm with you now baby?? Duhh... You're so special which nothing that I can compare with. And do you wanna know what I reply to his statement?? LOL I said "well, its karma, like the beauty and the beast!" hah! Take that!! :P

Aww baby, no.. To me, you're so awesome and fantastic and intelligent and great and oh-every-bombastic-word laa ;D You shed the tears when I cry, you give me hands when I'm in need, you make the funniest joke and makes me go ROFL, you laugh with me, you're like everything to me and I am feeling so blessed for ALLAH sending you to be with me through my ups and downs. I promise to you that I would stay by your side no matter its rain or shine, with you I'll stand. I shall say that you're my other half who can complete me and yes, I know its kinda early to say all this but I don't care. You always do and say random thing (which is so sweet) so I wanna do the same to you. Be Random!

My love to you have gone to the severe case!! :P wth

Loves and hugs

Happy New Year!!! 2011

2011-01-07T16:21:00.002Z

Hello beautiful people!!

I believe all of us are in great shape, great mood, awesome life. Heh! So, it's already been seven days now, and I am still coping with my life which I must say, super dull!! Thanks to my mom and dad who will never forget to bbm me everynight asking how am I doing, and also thanks to mr. keens cause without him I will be bored to death!! I know that all of us must at least have resolution doesn't matter new year, week, day or whatever~ Well, I do to but before that I need to mention on what's been in my mind lately.

1. I use twitter often now as I know its kinda private and I can say whatever I wanna say or rant or mock or curse! Heh! I don't do much cursing yeahh ;)

2. I realise now, I have not been invited to any of my closest friends' birthday here in Manchester. I wonder what did I do wrong and honestly, would like to confront but heck no cause it will drag this matter long! Whatever people~

3. I seldom spend time with my friends here nowadays. Probably because I'm working now or they got something interesting to do ;) And, to tell you the truth, I'm feeling kinda awkward talking to them sometimes.

4. Since like everybody getting far or me making myself apart, I love to spend my time with Ameerul. I know it sound clingy yes I agree.. But me and him doesn't seems to have problem with that. In fact, we love it!! Yes, I agree that sometimes I get annoyed seeing him every day, but whenever I wanted to go home and seeing him another day, my heart stumbled and doesn't feel right at all!! Oh, what have you done to me Ameerul!!

5. He is so kind to me and help me when I am down. Listen to me when I cry, just stay cool when I'm having my pms, help me so much in his own way. He's being too good for me which I am thankful to ALLAH for sending me him, Ameerul. I love you baby.

6. I'm looking for visa extension and I am looking for post-study work visa for Ameer too. He wanted to stay after he graduated and stay with me here. I hope that it will come true and your mama will allow you to work here.

7. Lately, a few of my friends are getting engaged and soon as in this summer soon, they gonna get married. Me and Ameer also have receive a few invitation which I am not sure I will attend or will I be here. Oh, all this things makes me wanna get married too!! InsyaALLAH, soon or after we graduated, we gonna get married ;) Ameen!!!

whoahh!!! Am I only a dreamer?? There are a lot of things playing in my mind yeah~ Can't believe it!! InsyaALLAH, whatever been bugging me, I try to solve it and whatever that I dream of, InsyaALLAH, I will make it happen. Ameen~
So, practically, I don't have any new year resolution~ All I wanna be this year, a good khalifah in HIS world, an awesome daughter to my parents, a fantastic sister to my siblings, a great girlfriend that nobody could ask for to my Ameerul and last but not least, I want to gain wealth this year ;) InsyaALLAH~

Please keep me in your doa ;) thank you!!
*hugs*

Have I told you?

2010-12-01T00:33:00.004Z

Did I mention Mr Keens?? NO?? YEAH??

Well, let the pictures speak ;)

*meeting after 2weeks holiday*

*Ehem! He bought me I <3>

*1st day raya skype ;)*

*Nottingham Game 2010*

*Dublin birthday surprise! not so~*

So, need I say more?? ;D

Hi, I'm too lazy :)

2010-11-18T01:58:00.009Z

I've a request from Fareha to update my blog. I don't know why I am too lazy and guiltlessly abandon what I first started writing. Shame on me who now turn to tumblr which I find much easier and way fun!! Well Fareha, I will try my best to update my blog talking and perhaps ranting about my so-no-interesting-Mancunian life.

Yes, as what all of you know, I already been in UK for a year now and has failed many times to book a plane ticket back home. Take it this way, whenever I wanted to purchase tickets to my beloved Malaysia, my bank account is out of order (no money), the air fare were way too expensive like its better for me to buy a gucci handbag instead =.= or or or there's nothing interesting happen in Malaysia *blame my friends who said that*. Ok, too long of an introduction :)

Have you seen my picture from my facebook?? You haven't?? Well, you don't miss much. I haven't upload any pictures recently. This is because, I am no longer bringing my compact pink camera along now wherever I go~ Eventhough blackberry's in hand but yeah, I just can't be bothered. Snap snap snap, it stays in my memory card. Ceh! Ok, I'll upload some here.

*Me on Syawal 1431H morning*

*Salam perantauan from us Mancunian; Ramadhan 1431H*

*Rendang, Ayam Masak Merah, Sambal Kacang, Sayur Lodeh which

I cooked myself for second day of Syawal*

That's Hari Raya session. Is it enough for your view, no?? I'll ask my friend Ryssa to email to me Raya pictures and I'll upload it later on facebook ;) aite?? Move on to what did I do over the summer here which I spent recklessly spending money doing nothing. Oh only God knows how much time I've wasted, how much money I've spent!! Ok, no room for regret! Yeah, basically I'm doing nothing. Wanna see some pictures?? Here~

*Peja's and Kak Aimi's parents came to town. Yay for delicious homemade cook!!*

*Sarah's graduation day, congrats sayang!!*

*up early on Sunday morning for carboot sale*

*In preparation of SHJ's graduation video*

*Ok, who's he?? *

Well, its about all of my summer but yet too many to tell. Can I continue to the next post?? I am way sleepy now. Getting drowsy for have intention to stay awake just because Mr Keens were in the library now doing assignment. Mr Keens?? Who is he?? I'll let you know soon, ok??

Goodnight lovely people!!

*hugs*

Sum up!

2010-09-19T11:38:00.002+01:00

I don't even know how to start nor to express how I feel. Everything been mixed up and all I can say, I'm at worst emotionally. First thing first. I know, that I am not a brilliant yet incredible to have a talk with. I am initially bitchy and sarcastic and I turns out to be friendly and warm. Ironic huh?? I know~ I am not Einstien nor Sheldon Cooper in big Bang Theory. No, I'm not. I'm willing to learn, criticised, mock, or anything that can make me matured and wiser. I can be clever, smart, brilliant, incredible and every wonderful things in the world if anyone teach me how.

I know that I have made so many worried towards my parents the most and my siblings. I know.. I failed so many times. I am not stupid nor dumb. No, I'm not!! I forbid you to say that! All I ask is for people around me to give me chance again and try to build up my spirit to not feel down and I need a chance to fail just during my studies and not when I'm living my own life, my own family. (Oh GOD forbid). Mak used to say to me that, ALLAH test me with his hardness because He still remembers me and wants me to remember Him in returns. Mak is right though.

Oh dearest ALLAH The Almighty,

I know I have made a lot of sins and I've been neglecting you. I am grateful that you still remember me and give me chance to live in your serene world. Breathe through my nose, eat through my mouth, walk with my own feet, thank you so much dear Lord. If this is what you want me to face and if there are lights at the end of the tunnel, I'll face it with pride for I know, you'll be waiting for me. I'll take it positively, I'll be optimistic. I promise. Ya Rabbi, all I ask is for you to please make me strong, brave and please always make me under your blessing Ya ALLAH~

I'm upset and I somehow don't think I can live anymore. I don't know whether I can handle this or not. I don't know capable I am at this. Only GOD knows. I didn't tell mak and ayah is because I don't want to worried and didn't want to burden them. Its not that I'm excluding them, no. My intention is pure innocent. I DON'T WANT THEM TO WORRY!! What I want now are to make sure they're happy and lift up their burden raising us so dearly. I love you, mak and ayah!!

Ya ALLAH, please guide me to the right path. Please always be with me. Please always bless me and have some mercy towards me. Ya Rabbi, I want to be good, I want to obey all the good deeds you ask me to do. Please Ya ALLAH, help me.

regret creeps in

2010-03-13T09:42:00.003Z

i suppose to study when i woke up this morning. well, i always stray away from what i have planned, so it's cool ;). yeah, regret!! never in my life i feel regret this kind of way. fuck off you dude!! oh gosh, i can't even say your name!!! it's not me who start it first, it was obviously you, loser!! anyway, i think you should know me better since we went to class, lecture together, and whatever.. but hell yes, as i was saying before you're insensitive and a complete fan to yourself! yes, you're always into you. it was suppose to be a joke, and you take it fucking serious! what the hell!! when it was supposed to be serious, you think it's funny.. you are so upside down man!! i got to school you, i guess... i am so fucking pissed off with you now!! when i wanna talk about it, you said there's nothing wrong and don't want to talk about it. hey, let me remind you.. who is running from each other?? me or you?? oh i am so gonna smack your head to the wall now!!! the hell you dude!! i can't believe you'll be acting so childish by running away and remain silent!! fuck off!!! naahh i will never ask for an apologies since i did asked last night but ignorance is way better you think ain't it?? so, let it be..

i'm so sorry, ranting those curse words. it's just i can't stand it!! today, i wanna feel how love can do to me.. yeah, i'm rusty at this! so, bare with me people.. i have a few things to share in this blog but suddenly i'm in no mood to update. heheheh sorry peeps!! i post pictures (only a few yeah) so, it'll summarise everything!! yes, i'll update about my super awesome 23rd birthday party!! you'll be amazed *jaw dropping* wait till i gather all the pictures yeah~ loves!

*bash at his posh flat*

*ok, semangat main pingpong*

*izzat's 22nd birthday!!*

*me and hanim at izzat's*

*a night to remember on my birthday*

love you guys till death!!!

blackberry

2010-03-11T11:25:00.000Z

Oh my god!! This is the first time I'm using my blackberry to update my blog!!! I know it's lame for just knowing~ but what the heck!! I'm impressed!! I'll update the blog all the time then, yeah it's a promise since everything is in my hand =P no more vain excuses!

2010-02-07T12:06:00.002Z

people, I'm disappointed. I just want to sit at the corner, and cry the whole day! But I know, I get nothing so why should I wasting my time right?? Straight to the point; I'm disappointed with WanSukrinaAzlin a best friend of mine. I'm devastated thinking that I have lost Norluqman's bicycle. I'm upset to myself for haven't make any progress in reading law assignment. And a whole bunch of stuffs that bugging me. I kept listening to "Rob Steward-When I Need You"... Where are those people when I'm in need?? Where are those promises made when we're apart?? Where are those hope that saying you'll be there when I need you?? Where are the statements 'I will always be by your side through ups and downs'?? Where??!!!!!! Is it just stays as hope?? Is it just stays a promise?? Is it just stays only to comfort me?? huh???!!! I understand that you are busy my darling bestfriend... I am the most person understanding person when you're different. I am the person you turn to when you need me and where would I be?? I always be with you, am I?? I always listening to your ranting, right?? Well, I never want to burden you by having a sense of responsibility to be there when I need you.. NO! I just want you to have time at least five minutes just to say hi. I'll be very much delighted if you just say hi! I don't want to babbling and disgrace you, I just want to express what I feel. Ok?? I love you babe, you know I always do.

p/s: If you reading this, remember I told you I wont come and find you anymore cause its hurt when declining the conversation?? Well, I stalk you always through your facebook. Seems like you really have time to be in front of your laptop. So, you get what I mean~

beating like its gonna explode!!!

2010-01-15T09:59:00.002Z

ok seriously, my heart is practically racing right after i told you! yes, it was racing since last night! fuck!!! what is it actually?? a sign that i shouldn't tell you?? or a sign that you might think that i am cheap?? damn~ it had happened.. no more turning back. u know now... will you still be the same person like i'm used to?? will you?? its a story of my pride. i should keep it private! obviously i should! but if i keep it longer, i ain't got no clue upon how and what to react. i somehow need the opposite sex point f view and i can only see you. you know i won't keep secrets from you. sooner or later its gonna revealed but i never thought it would have been contagious to me. it keeps pumping and it gives me nerve!!! owh dear you, please tell me what exactly in your mind?? please tell me an honest opinion. please tell me whats your point of view. please...

you know i've told her and i never miss any part of the story. well, i do feel the same way when i tell her, but yours are different. i wonder why~

anyhow, thanx for the support. i need it the most!! i hope, the secret is save~

rise from the awaken!!

2010-01-12T00:19:00.005Z

wtf??!! irrelevant title! heh! moron~
i just got back from work at mancity stadium. mancity vs. blackburn (3;1) yeah babyy!!! walking in the cold, makes me think about blog posting. heheheh my brain can still working u know even though the weather is 'lovely' =D

ok, during winter break for about three boring weeks, i seriously announce that manchester is a dead city without you getting acquaintance with people. take the revolver and shoot me now!!! basically, i'm stuck in my room daydreaming. lucky me got invitation by aisha to have a small christmas eve dinner together with arai and wany. thanx a bunch babe!! boxing day is such a pain in the ass!!! i wanted to buy my mom a handbag~ hell to the no!! there are no more marc jacob nor dkny left!! yes, i aimed that particular brand cause i know it's gonna be massively cheap!!! what the fish!! i'm sorry mak~ no birthday present for you now.. i'll search for other option ok?? a bit late, but worth the wait! i promise!!

new year with my darling mancunians!! love u guys!! memorable~ yeah, -2*C!! thanx!! with my only crocs at my feet, my toes turned blue and whats worst was 4pound for bus ride!! fucking crazy!! thanx to sarah~ thank you so much babe!! nothing much for new year though~ no clubbing no nothing!! well, i find its a good start!! clean slate!! stays in, study, movie, revision, facebook, nerd! yes, if my mom knows, she'll cry. cry because i obediently stay lazy at home, no money wasted!! a big pack on my shoulder!! =D i know you're proud mak!!

road trip on 3rd january!!! yeah babyyy!! you heard me right~ blackpool and liverpool!! thanx a bunch again to my beloved sarah hani jamil. her sister came, she booked a car, a full tank fuel, she picked us up and the best part was, she is the driver!! yeah!! what more could i ask for?? blessed!! (^_^) all of us (sarah, iffa, me, said and arai) on the road!! blackpool pleasure beach, everton stadium, liverpool stadium, albert dock. awesome!! tired but exciting!! on our way back, i drove the car. splendid!! never i imagine, i would drove a car here~ thanx makcik!!

ok, exam really gets on my nerve!! went to the library to borrow some books (i only borrow when the exam is near). ahahahah!!! stayed in again!! mak, ayah, see how nerdy your daughter here~ tsk tsk i know there are tears at the corner of your eyes.. jangan tipu!! heheeh perasan nak mati dow!!!! ok i assume, i didn't went to anywhere esle other than my room, sarah's and asda. oh yes, we went to casino on friday!! no, i don't gamble.. nope!! i went there because it was yen ling's birthday and all of went there to pleased her birthday~ it was fun though~ i got membership card!! went there for chatting and hot chocolate!! yesterday, we went for thai banana buffet.

that's it!! my big fat costly winter holiday~ yay!! its satisfying you know... at least i get to finish my spring term lecture notes and do a little bit of revision!! think at the bright sight, its cold, not so fun to be out there =( ye la tuh~ the conclusion, event though my holiday wasn't too fun or not too much travel like any of my friends, i find its pleasant!! i really had fun just staying alone in my cosy room =D seriously!!

*christmas dinner and boxing day!!*

*road trip to blackpool & liverpool =D*

p/s: i'm not liverpool fan yeah?? get it??!!

#i want to upload new year countdown video, but i xtau lah! nanti nak tanya mi sis~ heheh#

bye beautiful people!!

2010-01-04T22:35:00.002Z

first post in 2010...

i don't think that i'm obliged to any incident that could have happen to me in time to come nor feeling any needed in expressing what had passed. yes, no obligation to dedicate myself to anyone. somehow, i wanted to. feel the adrenaline rush that makes me blushing. yes, i do. ok, i'm trying not to make me sounds desperate. let me put it in a most understanding words which will obviously not ruining my pride. aha~ this year, i'm turning 23years young.. yes, i'm young at heart baby!!! i never thought that i'm being this girl. never in my life, i'm feeling a lot like me. what??? yeah~ thank GOD for u letting me live in this body. let me breathe. let me create my life. i know, it's only for a while.. thanks a bunch!!! i would never ask for more! i'm grateful~ i'm blessed~

why am i being so religiously devoted?? well, u never know for how long u going to live right??! so, i'm waking myself up!! i realised, the more i put myself on living, the more i learned. apparently, i try to be a better person this year. never look back (only for referencing ;D - ceh macam tak nak ada room of error puwn). i'm trying to keep up in good things that i have left previously. i want this year to be year of wisdom, pride, victory and joy.

i never believe in new year resolution. hell yes, i doubt it going to happen though~ so, why having resolution since i can change anytime i want in a heartbeat??!! am i right?? i couldn't agree more on that, seriously~ well, every people can speak up their mind, eh??

i know, i talk crap! who cares?? hehehe... i'm gratitude to what i have, people surrounding me and this body that GOD lends to me. alhamdulillah~ till we meet again love!!

tick tick ticking!!! its gonna ends tonight =D

2009-12-31T13:33:00.003Z

we got to move on. seriously!! 2009 honey, u really gives me pleasure this whole awesome year. yes, u did! its a true good fortune to me. thanks GOD!!! Alhamdulillah~ i'm grateful for what i have now, what i've gone through, and what ever decision that i have made. really, syukur~
i holding back my tears now. i am really going to miss year2009. year of awesomeness!! it really does brings out the real me (not that i'm not being real.. but this year i've learned of who i am). i manage to cope up with things that rapidly happen to me. thank GOD for creating me this strong and dedicated to what u've given. i am really appreciate it! a lot of things that had happen to me. i love 2009. well, i now got to say goodbye 2009 and welcome 2010!!

lets walk down the memory lane...
i can't really remember the sequence and any date obviously.. well, i try. what i remember the most is i passed CAT!!! finally after a few attempts on t5 paper.. i am officially done with all those nasty management paper!! then, a few weeks after the good news, here comes another great news! ayah and mak gave me a car!!! yeah, a car baby!! thanks guys~ i love u till death!!! what else?? owh yeah~ i lost 5kgs! (i know its not much.. but who cares??!) thanks to my gym instructor whom i used to have a crush on. used to, ok?? he really something =) thanks cos pretending that u have no idea that i liked u. thanks for no respond... thanks! heheehh... ok, thanks to my beloved friends for a simple 4march birthday celebration to me. i love it so much!! thanks for the cakes, jason mraz cd, thanks for making me a bit pissed off cos i was asleep.. u are always darlings to me.

owh yeah, ayah broke my heart when he says; i'm sorry, u're not going to study in uk. and the it was 'the climb' song as background music... and i told him, don't u ever mention these things up again. i refuse to discuss any further! it's not a threaten. it's just came out from a girl who have hope since mak said, ayah will definitely let u go. he got money. (i'm not blaming u mak, this is exactly how i feel that moment) i cried so many days. i recovered. preparing myself for ACCA exam. f5 and f6. i studied!!! i realised that this is my fate. stay here, complete ACCA.. nice, seriously it is~ aha! i had graduation in may. ciklah help me to send a set of kebaya cloth for hand-tailored. she said to the tailor 'kasi ketat sikit kebaya dia tu' heheeh... ciklah is so cute!! she is like my second mom when i'm in shah alam. yes, i did asked harris to have a photography session with my girls for my graduation photos. superb!!! i really love it! but sadly, i never had a chance to have a looked at it. i'm still waiting tho... patiently...

on the day of my graduation, ayah popped up study in manchester again! i refused to hear at first. i said, i told u before. i don't want to know about it.(see how broken-hearted i was??) then, he explained and mak wants an answer after graduation. what??!! u serious?? yes, she did. then she compromised and i told her can i tell her tomorrow instead?? ok, i did cry in making the decision. i know, i'm such a cry baby. it took me till monday instead. i've made the decision. i choose to go. for the sake of my studies, to improve our life, and experience life. yes! a day before boarding, my dad somehow were trying to get on my nerves. he was so fucking mad at me of being insensitive to the environment cause i haven't prepared any details about early 5days staying in cavendish hall soon.what i have checked, fiona already told him. haihhh... i love u ayah!!! i know u are afraid of letting me off ur sight. i know u weren't ready that time. well, i do to! owh yes.... did i tell u that suky is trying to be away from me all the time before i go on board. she always mad at me in no reason. i cried so many times when she ignore me and when she yelled at me. i don't know why. then she confess that she was not prepared on my boarding. she was not prepared to let me go. that's why all the ignorance due. i get it! i'm not ready as well bff~ i was never ready! my girlfriends, futsal mate, thanks guys~ for the farewell party. simple but memorable!!

13september2009 has finally come. ok, this is the moment. i wants to breakdown but i hold it back. i got to be strong. this is what i had chose. it's freaking me off!!! thanks to my families.(i consider suky's families are mine too).. thanks to my ever dearest girlfriends. and many thanks to my futsal team. u guys really are something to me. appreciate it girls!! i love u all!!! officially, that day i became closer to a girl name najwa. thanks babe!!! at first i can't believe myself standing on this english land. everything seems so unfriendly to me. the worst part was; i am going to celebrate hari raya without my family surround me. that was really creeps me out! but we manage to have our small yet meaningful hari raya. now, it have been 3 months and 18days i breathe english air. i'm falling in love with my life here. but still i do miss my beloved malaysia! apparently, i'm in a new chapter of my life when i first stepped in manchester. its no longer unfriendly. everything now are welcoming me in varies way.

alhamdulillah, i am so grateful to what i have now. mak, ayah, syazwan, syahid and sara, thanks for the love that u have shower me, thanks for everything that i entitled to, thanks for being my family. talib's family rawkkk!!!! tok, bak, maklong, makcik, teh, tam and cu; thanks a bunch!!! without u there is no me... bak paklong, makngah, makjah, pokde, pakandak, oteh, moksu; thanks a million!!! i miss all of u... to cousins; we are going to meet again in december 2011. i miss and love u guys!!! loads! no, tonnes!!! to my beloved girlfriends; thanks for the present. thanks for always dealing with my sometimes-annoying-weird-acting and thanks for being who u are... to mancunians; thanks for being my friend here. together we lead to an enjoyable and memorable this friendship journey~

syukur alhamdulillah..... 2009 really showers me a good moment. a good crowd. a good company. and a good life. hope that in 2010 many good things return... i just can't wait for 2010 to come. new year resolution??
study extravaganza+workaholic+holiday paradise+shopping madness=saving button ON!!!

bring it on 2010!!!!

its negative 3 degree celcius!

2009-12-12T00:37:00.003Z

mood: rojak

i know i betrayed. i'm so sorry. i just don't have time for blogging and yes u can say 'wtf, u are the one who insist your sister to arrange your layout till it look enchanting at first!!' well, thanks sara.. u know i love u...

ok, living here is not so bombastic like people used to boast about. it's simply nothing here! a boring dull night life, a very slow and fucking cold morning, and yes an early dusk! fuck, i hate it!! but lucky me, i have a bunch of cool friends to hang around. (not that we always loitering, ok~) most every friday night we went outing like going for shisha in rusholmes or simply had dinner together till midnight. but some of us, including me sometimes went for clubbing. enough said, the club here are super bored compared to msian club! bored here means, the song. bloody english people don't really have appetite! yuck!!!

i've spent a lot!!! like rebecca bloomwood spending minus the overdraft, yah~ i'm dead broke! i bought a lot of stuff!! boots, dress, make up, jacket, lingerie, tshirts, shirts, shorts, skirts, toiletries, and hell lots of other stuff!!! omfg!!!! what am i going to do??? i got no stable job, i barely eat now (i'm on diet), i got eye-bag, plus i'm getting fucking fat!! hell yeah i am!

u know what?? doing degree ain't cool! i got lots and tonnes of assignment!!! my eye-bag due to this plus movie marathon every night!! teehehehee.... this is formally my first time doing assignment and presentation. oh lord, u have no idea how freaking out! how i revised and do all over again whenever i knew others do differently which is actually i'm doing the right way i supposed~ i end up finish it just before the dateline which i managed to change everything for the assignment. fiuuuhhhh~ hahaha sounds like relief huh?? wait till the results! i hope i get excellent. pray for me people!!

during eid ul adha, najwa and i went to london. gosh, i couldn't believe myself that i finally stepped on this so called fashionista heaven not to mention metropolitan city. yeah baby!!! i was there!!! oh god, i'm so thrilled! sweet lord, i am so jaw-dropping! buy nehhhh it's not a place that i want to live. nope! it's so, hectic and rush and blah!! i don't like it! manchester is always near my heart. aaawwwww~ i was homesick(manchester) when i was there. thanks to izzaty!!! love u hun~

i just realised, i kinda making a summary here. hahaha just continue reading peeps~

ok now, its about my feelings. yes, i do have a crush on someone here. who?? i'll never tell! but for those who know, shut up and zip your mouth! or else~ heehehee.... but he brings lot of tears in my life. he make promises, he indirectly hurting me without knowing, he's insensitive, he's adorable, he sometimes good to talk to, he's judgmental, he's funny, he's not really gentleman, he's cute!, he's not someone that i dreamed of, he's cheeky and one obvious thing is; he doesn't know that i have a huge crush on him!!!!! i wanted to tell, but i don't have the guts and whenever i want to tell him, something stops me. really!! if u read this, i wanted to tell u that; i adore u and i was in a huge crush on u before. now, i know where i stand and i don't want to be hurt anymore. tonight is the limit! i can't stand it anymore~ enough of the feeling towards u. let say one day u feel the same towards me, just tell me. i wont promise a thing but at least i know.. tahnks for being u. i know who u are now.

hhmmmm... what else?? ok, i don't have any plans for christmas.. i might be working~ hopefully!!! i wanna save up some money, and gonna spend on summer vacation! yeah... i don't with whom i'm going, but i wanna do it! i don't mind traveling alone, get to know myself... right?? and yes before i forget, i'm applying for summer internship! honey, i'm gonna be working in uk!! never dream of this baby!!! hell yeah i wanna buy this gucci handbag! sara, u know u gonna get jealous! be jealous honey~ ahaahha....

i think lets call it a day. my back's aching lorh~ it fucking cold here in manchester. i'm so being a lazy bum by sitting on my bed wrap by comfy duvet. aaahhhh... heaven! nunite people!!! till we meet again, love~

actually, i'm loving it here!
i miss malaysia most of the time~

when shes not around~

2009-10-06T21:27:00.004+01:00

yesterday was her birthday... 22nd years young.... sadly, im not with u babe =(
but..... i did celebrate your study babe!!! i went to ate ice cream.... went to primark bought a bag and a cardigan. comel!!!!

suky, on your birthday yesterday, i hope u really had fun and was really in a good mood yah??!! nanti bila dah sampai birthday card, lemme know ok?? i love u!!!! u r the best thing that ever happen to me, n u know that rite?? kita kawan samapai bile2...susah senang sama2... kawan i dunia akhirat!

thanx for beiing my friand babe! thanx for being who u are, n i hope u'll stay the same. i love u for who u are =)

*ferrerro rocher ice cream 4 u birthday girl*

#sumpah rindu teringat kat u meksuk!! how i wish u here now.. i love u bff!!#

2009-09-28T10:29:00.002+01:00

i don;t have any intention to upload any picture as i m too upset with certain of things... i know i haven't update my self for god knows how long, but yes, i refuse. i'm so sorry ok??

these are my confessions:

1. i miss my family. too much till i can cry in front of them whenever we were skype-ing. yesterday as we promised, we managed to see each other by video conferencing. mak, ayah, i miss u guys!! lots!! i wanna cry, but i choose to not cry as it will show my weakness and to make both of u happy. 'cos when i don't shed a tear, i know, it will lessen ayah's worried feelings. ok?? i miss syazwan, syahid, sara, haziq, tok, bak n all... i know i got to be strong. all i need is your prayer.

2. even it only a day we haven't talk nor updating each other, i gone mad. suky, i miss u... where are u babe?? y haven't u reply my email?? y haven't u skype-ing anymore?? y u didn't online like u used to be like before?? y u didn't buzz me when u can c me online at ym?? y babe?? what have i done wrong?? let me undo my mistakes.. i told u before that i can't live happily when u went away neglected me even for a day.. remember?? its not that i'm being clingy.. it's just i want u to be part of my routine even though i'm way far from u.. seriously, i know u're getting busy.. all i need is u telling me u're fine. when i got some money, i'll definitely call u. i hope that, u r in ur good health. in a good mood to study. in a great shape to futsal.

3. my dear friend (u know who u r), i miss u guys.. sometimes when i went out, i wish u guys were there. its obvious what had u guys did to me; which is i cannot b alone 'cos i always surrounded by ur love. oh god, i miss u... u guys r my inspiration to live happy here. whenever i see people, i always relate it to anyone of u. uhhhh.... i miss u guys like crazy!!!! izza, layla, fareha n harris, i always wait for video conferencing that include all of u in it!!! when can it happen??

4. uming, abah, wae, ciklah, nad, kak yen, ja, n kak yen's daughters, i miss u guys too!! u know that i treat all of u like my one and only family?? yes, u guys had touched my heart and i hope we're not apart. i always remember every words that all of u had said to me. it'll melt my heart when something happen to any one of u. i couldn't bear to not have all of u as my family as well. i love u~

5. i'm not lonely here. don't worry. i just miss all of u. i'm homesick. najwa is so nice. she is the place when i want to express my feelings. we have lots more to learn from each other. she always accompany me and yes, she is a good friend. i thank god for having her here with me. thanx najwa. i love u.

i ought to know now, that u can't have everything u want.. to gain something, u got to lose something. yes, its for sure. to all of u; even though i can't reach nor touch u, i will always reach u with my prayers. insyaALLAH, HE will hear my prayers. i hope all of us live under HIS blessings. and i know, HE will send my love to all of u. amin.

i love u,

maryam; long; mary; mekye; ary

walking to with me yawww~

2009-09-19T10:43:00.005+01:00

ok, manchester is almost the same like shah alam... serious!!! minus the whether and lousy traffic, u got the same peaceful shah alam. and yeah, im liking it!!

*they said, its the cheapest. and its so true!!*

*aytoun businees school-me!*

*najie, brian n laura were discussing what to cook for hari raya*
puasa x ni?? sampai pk nk masak apa sume... ;D

*picadilly garden*

*bus trip around city centre*

*ok, this is hilarious 'cos she's so mad when we took her picture =D*

i think that im going to love this victorian land... eventhough im far from home, but the environment really feels like im back in malaysia... as long as my family keep in touch with me, my bff video call me everyday, and my friends here are being who they are and still have malaysian attitude in them, im satisfied!! feels like home... hope this will remain the same till i graduate~ tapi, i rindu malaysia jugak!!!

finally~

2009-09-18T08:55:00.003+01:00

if im counting my days right, i already on this land, for 5days. and u'll be shock if im telling u that only yesterday i had a chance to take a shower!!!! fcuk!!! i know... but hey, im not smelly ok???
the reason why i didnt take a shower because each time when im in the shower, when i turn on the tap, the water was icy cold! macam mane nk mandi????
so today, i figure out how to make the hot water come out from the tap! yeah, now im officially had taken my shower, and already start fasting! ehheeh... my body smells like me now, and my hair smells awesome!! and im proud of myself that i had taken my precious shower!! hahaahah...

*went to arndale yesterday and then took my shower! yieeeehhhaaa*

landing experience

2009-09-18T08:05:00.005+01:00

*'we're landing' the captain said- taken from monitor at my seat*

ok, so far, i can say that manchester airport is like senai airport(before upgrading) because its so old and dull looking! sumpah buruk!!! heehheh

*me an my baggage. (mula2 eksyen xnk pakai troli~ ceh!)*

*najwa n aisha. infront of the airport*

*THE AIRPORT yg xberapa nk cantek ni..*

new life begin =)

2009-09-15T17:30:00.004+01:00

i reached manchester yesterday (14 sept 2009) at 0730hours... i got into custom n collect my luggage. fcuk! my luggage broke! i mean, like the screw had torn out and it leaves holes to the bag. luckily, nothing was taken. hmmm, i wonder how was my baggage been thrown... must b rough. ouch!

*can u see the hole?? i can c my clothes inside ok??!!*

when i first step out the airport, i like scream saying "mak!!! nak balik!!!!" am i here for real?? uh, so dead, so quiet, and darn! its fucking cold, man!!! heheh.. first thought~

but now, i know that im going to love this place. deep down inside, i know this is where i wanna be.. its like shah alam minus the road traffic. its so peace and quiet here... the people are friendly. what make me say that?? yeah, everywhere i go(ceh! mcm dah abes round je ckp mcm ni kan~) and when they were like trip on you, they will smile and say sorry and r u ok??

*walking which turns out breaking my legs. its killing me!!!*

*oxford road. walking, as usual*

*view from my hall. i can see a stadium far at the end of the road, got to find out which football club it belongs to*

*view from my room. this time its around 5.30pm yesterday (14sept09)*

road to manchester part 2

2009-08-20T13:23:00.004+01:00

on the 15th last week, i went to pre-departure briefing at crown plaza. fuhhhh!!! the food was awesome!!! yummy~ but neh.... i don't eat anything due to heavy lunch. *tok, sambal udang tok memang marvelous hokkayy!!* ok, i makan sikit je lar~

the briefing was totally open my mind. it does help me in my preperation before i go... i have a list of things to buy which i already bought some but~there are things which really does make me went dizzy... ya lor~ fiona said to me to buy lotsa food stuff but yet, the uni checklist, said the other way.. *mana satu yg betul neh...*

for now, i have to figure out how can i fit all those things that i had already bougt into my luggage. will it fit?? most important is will it be at the stated luggage allowance?? not more than 30kgs?? cukup kew?? dengan rice cookerny? blender?? heater ag... haihhhh

i'll update later la eh what im gonna put in my luggage??? as for now, i got some pixie to share during the predepature briefing!

thats it for today's post!

u know u love me~ xoxo =D

road to manchesterpart 1

2009-08-18T18:01:00.003+01:00

at first, my dad said; "awak tak pergi la long~ ayah xcukup belanja"

and i said; "it's ok.. i don't mind but i want u to do me a favour. I DON'T WANNA HEAR ANYTHING ABOUT UK ANYMORE. PLEASE RESPECT IT!"

so, a few months after i told him that, he really did what i asked till my convocation day. he raised this matter AGAIN!!! and the most unbelievable order came from him was:
"i want u to make the decision by the end of today!" (fullstop)

GILER!!dalam kepala otak ni, *ayah ni sehat ke x???*

dalam dewan convo, mak kept on texting me asking have i made my decision.
*no mak, belum lagik...*

suky is my dearest friend whom i told first. she said : "pergi je lar..."
*perghh!!minah ni senang nya dia cakap*

i asked ayah whether i can delay my decision to monday or not, n he said ok...

i cried so many times that very crucial days.. i have to make a huge decision in my life so far.
n yes, i chose to go!

1. its because its for my own good~ *i pegi sana nak stadi. so~*
2. eventhough im leaving my bff here, i know they will understand... we'll keep in touch yah darlings!!!!
3. my family, i have no worries because they want me to go.
4. i wanna prove to my family that im worth for they sending me abroad to broaden my studies.
5. its time for me to survive by myself.

well, decision had been made. barang dah beli sikit-sikit.. skang ni nk pujuk hati suh sabar, jan sedih2... mentally, IM NOT READY!!!!

so officially, i am MMU coming student! my student ID number is:09980000 =)

so this is all my stuff that i got to bring. important documents!!

2009-08-17T15:49:00.004+01:00

hi peeps...
yeah~ its been ages i haven't updating my blog. pathetic huh?? *orang laen nk buat blog, awak puwn nk buat blog jugak...* NASEB LAR~

why is this?? hahah... well, u know im going... i've decided. i'm going. in order to pursue my ambition and what i dreamed off since i was a little girl. study abroad... alhamdulillah, ada jugak rezeki nk ke sana... thanx mak, ayah for fulfilling my dream!!! love u both till death!!!!

it's call Manchester Metropolitan University (MMU)

so, this is where i'm going to sit my ass for the next three years. fiuhhhh!!!to tell u, i'm so not ready to go~ why?? i'll tell u why later, ok??

for now, this will be my post. cause i'm struggling to decorate my super boring blog. daaaa.....

i rindu u ah...

2009-08-08T16:49:00.002+01:00

when u were left alone, far from who u always been, separated, apart.... u miss them! its called bonding... huhhh~ i miss u babe!!!!

I'M A BITCH!!!!

2009-06-26T13:01:00.003+01:00

allahuakbar!!!

i am beaing a fucking bitch friend. yes, i am!

dear suky,

i am so sorry.. you have been so good to me babe. i don't know how to say sorry to you. i know you're upset with me. i'd figure out some ways to appologise to you. but as what i a concern, you would like to cool down first.

darling, i've made thousands of mistake. and i hope you had accept my appology. today, i had ripped your heart out. i know. you're hurt. i am sorry for humiliate you in front of the team. i try to change that cause you did told me before you hate it! i'm so fucking sorry dear...

then today also, i had flaten your tyre. i did notice the car allignment is inbalance but i am so naive for not knowing anything about cars. it is my mistake cause not take a good care of your car babe~

and, i am totally sorry for all i did to you. i swear i would trade the world to you if i could just for us to be like normal. we always fought. but this time i felt so regret. i will go apart from you buddy this coming september. and it is for a long period. i don't want any resemblance that we're fighting. i will be heart broken when you can't forgive me. babe, i'm sorry...

suky dear, you're the best person i know so far. you always encourage me to pursue what i want and dream. you're always there when i need a shoulder to cry on. when i am mad at you, you'll will never ask me why and just wait patiently for me to explain why... when i'm financially broke, you end me some money and sometimes you didn't want me to pay it back! oh lord, you're so kind to me...

i don't know how to express that i am sorry. if you read his babe, i sayang semua kawan-kawan i. you baek sangat ngan i. family you, kawan-kawan sekolah you, semuanya baek ngan i. i akan menyesal sampai mati kalau kita gaduh. i kalau boleh nak kita kawan sampai bila-bila. i selalu ingat korunk semua. xpernah lekang dalam kepala otak ni.. korunk la yang ceriakan hidup i.

suky, i hope that we'll always keep in touch when i'm off to uk. and i really hope that you keep in touch with my family too. please??

*thanx for being my roomate, thanx cause you always listen to me whenever i am sad, happy, having problems, listen to me when i'm telling ou about whom i like. you're never tired of me. i'm thankful to ALLAH for sending you to my life. if not i don't know what am i being now. suky, thanx! i love you darl~

dear family

2009-06-16T15:13:00.005+01:00

firstly, i want to say sorry to my darling friends. u girls are so close to me and if i haven't tell u this, its not that i neglect u guys... i just want it to be confirmed first.

it's confirmed now... well, i don't know if u have heard it from anyone. yes, i'm going to uk. its manchester. i'm doing degree in accounting and financial. plan to be there for 4 years(its just a plan though~). i can't be so sure.

its devastatingly sad. u must wonder why right?? well, it is sad!

it is my dream to study abroad. especially in uk. but the thing is, i don't want to burden my dad.
i said i don't want to burden him because i know hows our family financial condition. we're not rich and my dad doesn't own the whole estate in jb (obviously we're not!).
my dad is willing to put invest his money just to fulfill my dream and also his dream to see me succeed in my life. its fucking awful!! god, i want to cry!!! sedih sangat~
i am so touched when my dad and my mum are so devoted to their daughter to think of where they can find money just to pay my expensive fees, accommodation and every expenses there. they said, they'll find all the sources and just want me to concerntrate on my studies. (i promise u, mak, ayah. i promise!)
then, im so sad because i'm afraid that my siblings will suffer in their financial. i pray to lord that they will not having trouble to ask money from my parents. [i tak nak, klu dorunk mintak beli sluar kew, baju kew, kasut kew, dorunk xdapat nti mcm skang ni]
sedih tau rasa macam ni. rasa macam menyusahkan my parents. ayah xcakap ape2... tapi i really can feel that he's really trying to make me happy. god please~
the other thing is, im sad to leave them here. klu bole, nk bawak dorunk pegi skali!

MY PROMISE TO YOU

i will never ever forget my roots
i will the best student in the uni
i will work tripple harder to obtain money for my funding
i also will find sponsorship so that ayah will less burden
i will always take care of myself and always be cautious
i will secure our family's dignity as well as mine
i promise that i will keep in touch everyday! i promise.

mak, ayah, wan, ayid, sara:
i love you all. thanx for the opportunity. long promise, long akan bayar balik jasa baik ayah kat long. long xkan lupa pengorbanan ayah buat long. long doakan mak ngan ayah sentiasa sihat dan dilindungi ALLAH s.w.t. dimurahkan rezeki, dipanjangkan umur, bahagiakan hidup mak ngan ayah sampai bila-bila. wan, ayid n sara, long harap sangat korunk belajar sungguh-sungguh. dapatkan apa yang korunk nak. please get ur degree at least~ insyaALLAH, lepas long abes belajar, long akan tanggung korunk belajar sampai korunk berjaya. jaga mak ngn ayah buat long. jaga diri korunk elok-elok... family,i love u all so much! i'm yours~

<3>

interesting!! nehhh

2009-06-14T12:24:00.004+01:00

hi beautiful people in the world!!
[erk... dah ramai kew yg bace blog neh?? ;/]

i haven't update my blog for as long as i can remember. i had betrayed to our promise dear bloggyy...... duhhh... its so uncool.

and fuck! i don't have any picture to share~ dammit!!!
ok.ok.ok. i try to make it as interesting as ever!! promise (^^)

exam and head banging days had long gone passed. fiuhhhh~ i finally made it! i don't want to sit for f5 though but i'm being force to by my mum cos she said she had paid for it and hell yeahhh i mustn't miss it. despite, she said just sit in the hall or sleep if i don't have any clue. thanx madre!
(i'll tell u later why i refuse to answer f5 soon!)

daddy took me home on the 9th. we were planning to off for jb like early in the morning but he got some stuff to make a clearance first. yah~ im a good daughter. so what?? *making a proud face* ceh!

duh... its so dull!! plain~ boringg~ ehh~ whatever!
sakit ati x this post??
sorry peeps... i cannot upload photo lar...
god dammit!!

missing

2009-06-06T01:16:00.000+01:00

when i woke up this morning, i feel loss, i feel pain in the ass, i feel like i missed them, i missed you, and i feel like i want to cry my heart out loud.. fuck i am!!
i haven't leave you guys but yes you guys had make me missed our moment. how can i imagine life without the surrounding that i used to?? i can' t live this way! i want it to be the same. its never boring whenever i'm lingering around you guys...yes, i'm telling the truth! oh no, i seriously don't know how...
i just pray to lord, please don't make me change and don't make them change. not even a dot! please lord, oh pleaseeee~
i want to cry!!!! gosh

p/s: darling friends, i already missing you....

exam nk dekat!!!!

2009-05-21T19:32:00.000+01:00

exam is just around the corner. and everybody is busy preparing themselves! aiyakk!! stress dow... this is the problem when you aren't prepared early (this is more to me ok).... hahah

HIT IT BABYYY!!!

lihatlah dunia~ this shows i DID STUDY!!!

klu mak tau ni mesti terharu. trus tny nk beli ape2 tak?? hai~ klu la mak tau (^^)

im stuck with them everyday struggling nk pass exam. <3>

prepare to go back. xcited giler nk balik!!

my table from different view. same place same time.

ptar4
everyday (except saturday n sunday; sebab x bukak)
pagi sampai petang
tingkat lima

aceh ceh ceh ceh.....

gambar camwhore mesti ada ek!

<3

2009-05-18T18:23:00.000+01:00

everyone has interest. right?? whether its obviously ridiculous or pathetically lame, hell who cares?! aite??

for this post, i wanna highlight my first interest.
its fun, friendship, hilarious, memorable and its indescribable!

FUTSAL!!

i'll update more when i'm free!

long live SEMUT HITAM!!!!

you! who else?!

2009-05-17T15:35:00.000+01:00

my knight shining armour,
im waiting,
still and stiff, loyal
where are you??

i dreamt for you to come,
spread your arms and fetch me
with gratitutes and proud to be

lingering around me without doubt
hesitation afar.

but,
i have my curfew
which i make boundary
i want you to knock and ask

my time will come
and don't wait too long
'cos i don't think i can

then, you'll be sorry =(

ps: im not that needy ok?? but sometimes when the urge come, i couldn't help lor... ngee~ but seriously, i can live without the opposite sex. yes, i can! this is just a normal feeling we, (young, sexy, brainy and elegent woman) sometimes do sense. right??

well, lets stop it here. move on!

selamat pagi cinta!

2009-05-14T02:51:00.000+01:00

morning all lovely people around me~
bless u all....

*ok, this is for u:

people change, eventually
they may be good, or the other way round
i missed the old u!
who practically messed up,
who ignored every word i said,
and who is frankly outspoken!
screw u!!!
why must u changed??!
i just love and adore u
totally the way u are~
i don't mind if u're
being an absolute bitch
'cos it makes no harm
but yet bliss!
i want u to be u!
don't want u to change~
please???
i know, u're pathetically easy to be influenced
make a line and know ur boundary
i heart u, buddy!

*to those who had changed. i'm representing those who wants the old u back~ (^^)

seasoning; spices!!! ish

2009-05-13T15:38:00.000+01:00

hey peeps!

haha.. it has been ages since my last post.

gosh! lame! lame! lame! im not loyal to this blog. gah. but serious shit i really do wanna write something before but i keep on delay, delay and lonnnnggg delay! arrgghh!!! *ashamed* =(

[procrastinating is a big no-no ah~]

ok ok ok.. i have a long list to write now~ damn! not enuf time!

[im gonna have my final xm soon! and i've done nada!!!]

well, whatever!

people. i noticed that since i commit to this blog i haven't reveal nethin about me. aite???

this is me! *sori la, xde gmba yg ok lar.. yg ni kegedikkan terserlah dow!* but frankly speaking, i can be the cherry on top of the cake. kan??? haha masuk bakul angkat sendiri!

i am me. simple. once u get to know me, i think u'll gonna have thought about me eventhough its just a tiny dot in ur big-headed mind. i am very certain of that! i think i'll touched ur heart and will never fade in ur memory. i think la... so, u get the picture about me then! cukup. cukup.cukup...

i love them!

u guys too!

of course u girls too!!

i heart u both too cayunk!!!

i xlupa u k daling!!!

i am so tremendously love all of u!! i just can't imagine if one of u getting far and i never heard nething from u nemore.*sob*sob*sob* i think i would be half-functioned 'cos u know, u guys plays a big role in my life! u guys r those who seasoning my life and make it more merrier.. sweet lord! u guys r like my lingerie (",) heh! don't get me wrong k~ seriously, i'll never fucking set u guys out of my mind! swear!! (^^)

to my darling friends, i sayangg korunk sampai mati! wish for this friendship never end girlfriend~

To all women that i love!!=D

2009-03-31T12:34:00.000+01:00

If you look inside a girl,
You would see how much she realy cries.
You would find so many secrets and lots of lies.
But what you'll see the most, is
How hard it is to stay strong when everything is wrong!!

It does'nt matter anymore...
I guess things happen for a reason.
Tears eventually fade.
And one day, one sweet day,
Everything will be exactly how it's supposed to be.
Moving on is a process, and
You have to promise yourself that you're really ready to let go!!!

*This is for all women that i love who always cherish and rejoice me with your love and care... You are all appreciated and deep down inside my heart you girls are very dear to me~

**I know every women around me had been hurt, dumped, rejected. And yes, i wrote this for you girls! I heart you!!!! Girls power babyyy!!!

GOD bless and take care! love~

"TALEnTIME"

2009-03-30T18:50:00.000+01:00

I skipped class today... Ngee~ Well, i did charity today ok??? By spending my time to my dearest friend suky! Today is her day(seriously, not her birthday), so why not i company her..?? Kan???

Later in the afternoon, we went to klcc together with fareha. She's so mixed up with colours today. Blue, purple, red, brown... Matched with her favourite faded blue jeans! Well girl, i think its cool and nothing that you wore that could sore my eyes. I loike!! Serious shit!!

Stepped into klcc, we went to zara first as i mentioned to suky that i saw a really nice cut of man's leather sandal. So, we peeked into zara, and nehh...all are women's wear. The wedges shoes really does caught my eyes. Damn!!! Red colour with straps around the ankle and 5inch platform. Wow!! I'm so into it~ huhu how i wish i got lots of cash that moment!

Next, we hit the topshop. I adore this one blue bubble dress. Ok, when i got the picture or THE DRESS, i post it here, ok... But really, what's bugging me was this one sunglasses with diamond studded at both side of the glasses. Gosh!! It was so devine~ its rm93 which i think its worth! Well, i think when i got my allowance this coming April, i wanna hit the mall buying that sunglasses babyy!!!! yeahhhh~

We had lunch at the food court where i had my super yummyy 'nasi goreng kerabu'. Ummmpphh!! Sedap!!! Talentime was next in our list. Sweet lord~ You should watch it! Its fucking oscar winner... duhhh, ridiculous ok~ serious!! Watch it people. Its the best from Yasmin ahamad so far! every scene has its own beauty. the plot are being carefully organised. she really does know how to attract viewers(esp me). god, i love her!! she's the bomb!! yasmin ahmad, u make our filming industry superb babyy!!!

enough. i drove back to shah alam around 6. fuck!! congested ok!!! im darn sleepy and only god knows how sleepy i was. i half awake while driving. suky had long gone in her dream. precaution act, i drank mineral water every time when my eyelids want to shut. huargghhh =0

reached home at 8. u can imagine how fucking tired i am~ huhh... we (me and suky) did nothing til our friends came to fixed suky's laptop. they stayed for an hour and i called it a day. huargghhh.... im sleepy... nunite! im excited to post new blog tomorrow~

GOD bless. take care. love~

just started...

2009-03-30T01:54:00.000+01:00

Last night (29th March 2009), out in a blue i express to suky that i want to make a blog where i can simply write what i feel about anything! Yahh,, and i did it this morning after having a nice bath. Aahhh... Finally!!! =D

Most of the peeps i know, had made their own blog which used to make me wonder; is it necessary??? well, now i think it isn't necessary but it's optional where you can write leisurely without any hesitation from others.

So, i hope that with a simple kick start, i can really make my blog a success. which i really hope i can continually writing and have the spirit to say what's in my mind...

GOD bless and take care!! ~love~